Today would have been Steve's 46th birthday (my brother),I can't believe his has been gone nearly 5 years,I hear people say it gets easier & some days it feels like it does,it's times like today & other special times like xmas & special birthdays like Ricks 21st & Waynes 18th coming up in the new year,that it hits like hell that they aren't here anymore...

Well i had better pull myself together I can see my brother telling me not to get upset just to have a drink for them both & be with my family...

It is sooooooooooo hot here today,wish I had gotten the pool when I saw them on special,think I will go get one this week,I would love to go to  beach but it is just too bloody hot out there for the kids & I hate to think how many people there would be there...